Touched.

Hello dear readers. How you've been? :)
Good i hope. Anyways, I'm gonna talk about something interesting today. It's things in our everyday life that we might have over-looked and well, just not appreciating what people around us are going through.
Everyone has a story to tell. EVERYONE.
And no matter how we judge it, in the end, it's really up to us to decide whether that story will affect our lives or not. Personally, i like this kind of stories. Gives me something to think about from time to time. Especially those touchy ones. I have a few friends in my life that gives me these kind of feelings. The way they go through life as if nothing's wrong. I don't know if they break down once in awhile but all i know is, they thought me a lesson in life, and so the least i can do is to respect them and what they are going through.

Still not clear?
Well, i have a few stories.
No 1. :)
He was just 8 at that time. He knew nothing. Just like any normal day, he would help his mom in the garden. And his loving dad would just lie down on his chair. Just relaxing while enjoying the peace. A second passed, normal. A minute passed, nothing seems wrong at that time. An hour passed and something went wrong. Soon, a friend's parents of mine, took care of hi and his brother. A day passed, his dad was gone. To thin air, disappeared like a magician's illusion. He was just 8, when he had to bury his dad. He was just 8 when his father's ashes and soul was laid to rest. He was just 8 when he had to take responsibility. Now he's same age like me, but living life as if nothing happened. I was touched.

No.2. :)
It started as a happy family, it ended the opposite. With one cheating on the other, the whole family was on the brink of breaking everything apart. In time, it settled The "war" was over. My friend's mother had the upper-hand. What she had gone through for her family, that i don't know. But with a few hints here and there, I knew she was stronger, and so was my friend. It's as bad as losing the man of the house, but nothing stopped my friend from living. Although he may not know what love may be because even his parents didn't know what it was, or at least his dad, i know he's gonna find it soon. I was touched.

No.3 :)
I am speechless about this. 4 years together, even when people said you won't make it. But i think you will, till the day you make promises with her, till the day you have a child, and till the day you pass away. I hope you both will stay as one. Give, not only me, but everyone around you, the true meaning of love. Stay together because I was touched.

The list goes on, dear readers. I'm not sure if you bother to read it all but who's forcing you.
All I want you to do is open up your eyes. Widen the range. People around you are suffering but they just don't show it. Appreciate them with respect. Think about it, and ask yourself, who ARE the people that's going through a hard time in my life. You'll be surprised. Owh, of course i have my own story to tell, but i'll save that for another time alright?

Touched and happy at the moment.
Your truly. :)

Why?

Hmm, when you asked me. I didn't know. Its just there. The feeling, its just lingering in me. Well, i guess that's what they when you fall, you really fall hard. Please don't get me wrongly. Even after what I've been through, i know its really weird to still have the feeling. Many would have given up. Truth be told, i never really had the thought of giving up. But at the same time, i'm afraid. To fall again. To believe again. I'm only half way back up and now i'm giving hints i'm gonna fall again. I think this time, i won't. At least not yet. I'll let time tell. I won't make any move. Not this time. Not until i know it's okay to fall again.

Soften my fall.
Cause today is a great day for falling in love.
Yours truly.

When everything is against us.

Funny story on how i came up with that title, but its really got me thinking.
Well, it was my IU day today. In case most of you dont know, IU day( International Understanding day) is a n event whereby a club, does this event to get to know more about the country and telling it to the others.

Unfortunately, my IU day was depressing, sad to say. So many problems in such a small time. Sometimes, i feel, people dont understand what we're are going through. And its like the whole world is going against us. :/
But then when i think back, i was one of those people that didn't appreciate just a little bit of what people gave us. So, from now on, i'm changing my perspective. But it does bring up an interesting question right?
Ask yourself, what if everything we know goes against us? Would you end your life or fight on?
I think that really proves who you are as a human being. I would fight on. Like in my IU day, problems happened but in the end, it was all good. Like a huge load had been lifted. :)

On another note, i just had a chat with my friend about relationships. Owh how much it hurts me when i heard what he was going through. Kinda reminded of what i'm going through last time.
But he did stuck me with one particular sentence which really moved me.
"Take the leap of faith"
I think most of us heard of this before. Well, if you didn't, then let me elaborate. In every relationship, it is a gamble. No one meets each other and falls in love instantly, not until they take that leap. To trust, believe and hope for a good future with that person. Loving is like gambling. You'll never know the outcome, and you'll never know whether youre gonna win or lose. But its also different from gambling because, most of the time, you end up winning. So go ahead, take that leap of faith. To have faith with someone, who makes you smile, who gives you butterflies in your tummy, and to know that that certain someone will always be there for you. Once you know he/she is that someone, don't let go. And don't get into a relationship if you are unsure. It will only hurt both sides. But if you are sure you wanna go for that someone, all i can say is, jump. Into that life you dream of having. Who knows, you might end up hurting both sides, you might be fighting for freedom, or you might just be together. Finding that fairytale is what we all want.

Hunting down for it. Yours truly. :)

All for the best.

Hello dear, readers. Lovely day isn't it. Well, please ignore the fact it's already night for me. :P
Well, back to the point, i'm here today to talk about how weird life is.
Went for a charity walk today called "Go Green" and i did not regret one bit going there. You see, i met her again. Sure it was awkward at first but, in the end of the day, it turned out for the best. Now, i'm actually smiling again and this smile is genuine, i promise you.
They ask, what's so hard talking to her again. Friends at time, doesn't understand but thanks to them though, I did made my move to talk to her. With just a pinky-promise. (Yes, i don't break pinky promise) :)
Well, in another case, my friend and I went to Aeon and lazed around the garden area the whole time. Talking about events in life, both our life, and about relationships. It was a good talk. Plus with little events happening around us, for instance, a couple afraid to talk to each other after what seemed to be an arguement but in the end, got back together, and also a small kid, randomly saying hi to people around him. How cute right?
It's events like this that really moves me. Especially our small and short-lived chat but i'm glad we did have that talk. :)
Now, we are at good terms and i feel so content. Now, all i have to worry is my upcoming events. Wish me luck guys.
Owh one more thing, i finally gave her what i wanted her to have after so long. I hope you like it. :)

Not a BIG FAT LIAR. Yours truly.

Doppelgangers.

First of, i was inspired to write this. Don't know why but it just struck me.
A doppelganger is someone that looks like someone. A look-alike. A twin.

Have you ever wanted to meet someone like you? Whereby you both are like alike, you like the same thing, same hobby, same taste, but yet at the same time both of you are totally different people. I admit, i wanna meet someone like me. Someone that i can relate to in everything i do. It's not easy.
But what really struck me is that, in the end, we ourselves are our own doppelgangers. Look, think about every single one you know especially yourself. Then look back five years ago, were they the same person? Were YOU the same person? I'll bet my life, you aren't the same person you are now.

For example, five years ago, i was just a kid. Lost with no direction to go to. But readers, you see, the universe has already planned our life. God himself did. Back then, I was not a nice guy, and was kinda weak back then. But now, i'm proud to say that i'm stronger in life. It doesn't matter how many things are thrown at you, if you make it out alive, you make it out stronger.

Why don't you ask yourself that question. Think about it. Events in life are there for a reason.
And whatever you do, follow your heart, not always your mind. Opposing your heart will make your heart weaker. If you know what you want, deep from the heart, fight for it, chase it, keep it. Even if it seems impossible, it IS possible. If it weren't to be possible, the thought of it won't even be there.

Well, another thing i want to add. My school life is getting tougher now. People are starting to show their true color. Never did i thought he could be so ego-maniac. It's sad cause in the end, it'll devour him. Blinded by his ego-ness, i can only side him for so long. Now he has gone over the limit and sad to say, he won't make a great person in life. I looked up to you, now all i can see is down.

Blabbering around. Yours truly.

Confused.

It's all i can say. That is how i am feeling right now, that is all i am feeling right now.
This moment will pass on. I'm sure of it. Till then, i shall keep doing what i have been doing all this while.
A heart is never broken, the links are all just disconnected. All we need is someone to come and link it back. For the frown to turn upside down. Anyone would do. :)

Well, i would also like to add thank you note. To the Volleyball Team this year. I couldn't find a better team with a better chemistry. Luck just wasn't in our side this year but it's okay. ACS ALL THE WAYY! HUAT AH! :)


From good to better. Yours truly.

What is a girlfriend/boyfriend to you?

Well, what is it? What do you see in that particular someone you are in love with? Lately, all my friends are finding what I (Yes, i repeat, I) hope will be their true love. :) Yes of course most people think true love is all trash but think of it properly, is it really? I myself, love to believe in it. If it wasn't meant for me, but for a friend, then I'm content enough. I like seeing people happy, feeling loved. Especially if the relationship is true. No cheating, no lying, no reason for them to NOT fall in love. Especially to the guys, when they hold their partners hand, the feeling of proud-ness they have in them and to the girls that isn't shy to show how much she cares. They just complete each other. I'm sure once in a while, they have their flaws shown but if they were to be in love, that small matter won't stop them from forgiving each other. I mean c'mon, nobody is perfect. I also love seeing my friend that stayed with his girl after almost 4 years. 4 years! People, i think we all can learn from that. :) I also wanna congratulate my friends that is now in a relationship.
An advise. Always smile! You don't know how much it'll mean to your partner. :)
Ahhh, sheer joy indeed. :)

However, I stunned by a statement not long ago. And it really hit me. I was advising my friend about relationship when he struck me with this statement.
"Wow, thanks Scott. You should be a love Guru. Haha."
I did not know how to feel. Was I good in any of this? I looked back and just gave a sigh and said,
"I myself having problem with love."
Its funny, how I can go on and on and on about this and not moving on. Even advise from my friend .who advised me to right my feelings down would help, helped. I guess my time isn't up yet. I'll have to force myself to get over everything. It's not easy I can tell you that. Not with all the stuff I'm going through now. Friends, events, life.

I always wonder how, she moved on so easily. It was never easy for me, For both of mine. I guess her feelings died down as time progressed. It's hard, seeing your picture all over, hearing your name being mentioned.. It looks like I was just a memory. A bad one. I'm only talking about you here cause i HIGHLY doubt you'll ever read my blog. Plus, I don't think you'll bother remembering about me anymore. That's life i guess. You get thrown out once you've done your job.
Honestly, I am sick of blogging about all this but i can't help it. :(

I just have a few more wish.
To those that just found their match, please stay as one. It won't hurt to forgive one another. Put ego aside. It only kills.
Remember, a boyfriend/girlfriend is not a title, it is a promise. 
And congratulations again. :)


And to you. :(
Sigh, all i want is to see you one more time, to pass you something im meaning to give you long time ago.
If we do meet after that, i'm sure its just a small intersection between our path. I'm sure it won't change anything. :(

F*** SCOTT! ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! 
This will be the second last about this. Hopefully.


Rising back from the ashes. Yours truly.